Saturday, April 30, 2005

IQ test? dunno how reliable.. alot of logic questions i wasn't too fond of answering:


Congratulations, Pea!Your IQ score is 129

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

hmm they wan me to pay hmm.. to see my full report.. err..

u can find em tests here...
http://web.tickle.com/tests/

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Day 2 (because i got pestered) of BURN 2005 : DAY 2 Photos

Actually the bed is way much better than civ's. But i have phobia of double deckers that are probably more than 10 years old. I don't like sleeping on the bottom bunk. kinda scary to see the ceiling so low. Fatigue took the best of me and got my rest.

Apa ni exercise tak maksud akal. No lar.. had fun trying to fake running around the torny grass.
I always enjoyed taking ppl's backs, cos they look most natural without noticing a camera.

2nd theme talk - yes be expecting more action and faith building sessions.
Was all prepared, just bring in on! My group clique very well when it comes to team building activities, "where is your brother"? And it turned out to be "Am i even keeping?" First station was blind mice and it wasn't hard, but frustrating to make ppl do something when they can't see. i was blind folded the year b4 n i had to pop water balloon by sitting on em. To not be able to see, is very scary. But to have that assurance of a voice guiding, things are less dark than they seem.

Next station was polar bear ice - and my feet nearly got froze bite... its was PAINFUL~!!! even for 30 seconds. Ahh relationships are even more STINGING when they don't go well. Figures, the emotional pain is hardest to heal. And without anyone beside to keep us company, i think the pain will linger even longer and eventually more hurtful than before. Then our spiritual being just freezes like ice. Doesn't mean the pain isn't there if v claim that v don't feel it. That thorn will always remain there, but most of the time v dare not (or can never) pull it out alone.

3rd station - wat's this tasting each other's saliva again?
oh dear.. another disgusting episode of "who gets the last dose". My group's sacrificial lamb, its obvious from the many snap shots. ahh.... i heard even worst.. glad it was over. I HOPE. In life v have to bear with one another, no matter the good n bad. Working with ppl would be the hardest job requirement in any task. You would think church ppl are all sweet lil old ladies, but.. they come in all shape n sizes, just like wat's in the world is in the church as well.

4th station - errr... y do v have to carry the queen again.. its war. Give ppl weapons n they will seek and destroy. The race v're gonna run (if u haven't taken up God's challenge) or running,is not a breezey stroll on a grassland filled with spring flowers. Its a path that has snares, traps, rolling boulders (if u can fancy them), lies, sadness, pains, hardship. Then as v overcome each hurdle that comes our way, God equips us, He teaches and builds us up for harder battles ahead. I remember clearly the bible exposition on James. Trials come and they are there to train our patience, our endurance, n strenghten our faith in God. Temptations are things that v ask for ourselves, unless v tear away these desires that are not of God, v are never free.

I'll just touch on theme talks cos i remember them more clearly than other stuffs.
The 2 workshops were inspiringly fun and exhausting. First v had to crack our brains, then our eggs, then strain our selfs for water balloon fight. Who gave out that idea that MYFers are most durable and can witstand any conditions?!! The non-stop action pack saturday was not even near the end. There comes another round of games. And i got most irritated by David! 3 months of no seeing his face, he haunts me when im quacking like a duck. Simon is less cruel than last year. I should be thankful.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Day 1,

Bus ride was smooth sailing and i guess i was pretty anxious to get to pd methodist center. Needed to facilitate the washroom.

do help urselves with :
selected day 1 photos
ps. threw out alot of spoilt but should have been fond snapshots.

There were 50 campers, 2 counsellors, 2 facilitators.
Speaker, Annette A. Arulrajah. boy, I didn't expect to have such an impacting theme talk 'workout' conducted by her. Afterthoughts from the first theme talk: Before we can start anything, we sure have to know ourselves first and foremost. What I hold on most dearly in the world will destroy the flame that i once set on fire. I do pray that serving is not showing (off), but an act of worship. In the midst of my busyness, i've forgotten the purpose of doing many church stuffs. And slowly the commitments turn tiresome, bothersome, a ritual-some, something I have to do and not want to do. God doesn't need to see my credentials, i don't need to prove how much im worth. Because my worth is in God.

to be cont.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

MYF CAMP 2005 - B.U.R.N. - duration = 48 hours
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Pre-camp week was all bout frustrations, doubts, numbness, tiredness, a weary dried out flesh and bone. Where's my soul? Where's my heart? Y are they ineffective and not functioning? My heart wasn't expecting anything and my soul was crying, I wasn't too sure. I was yes numbed.

I wasn't in any mood to go for camp. But at the final hour a funny feeling came to me.I had to be in uni at 8am and catch the bus in church (KL) by 12 noon. My lab ends at 12 noon. Logic tells me i have to skip part of lab to get prepared for camp. RELUCTANCY. My bro was firm n v left uni by 10.30am. n headed home. At 10.30am, I smiled back at my friends who told me to have fun. I knew I was excited about camp when I left the lab. I was finally able to put aside all things that had been stopping me from going to camp where my soul longs.

Meet the campers, n me was holding camera. this was the group shot near to the end of the camp.



click here for slightly larger version


I'll post as much photos as I can. Postcampsyndrome is heavy but the memories won't fade. I shall try my best to put em here. Every camp to me was different, this one was special.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Yay, nothing to rejoice bout since i rejected my DN layout and chose an existing template to play with.

Im still contemplating whether to cont' my life in bloggers. Ahahaha, im getting sacked for sure.
I think I won't be abandoning here since i did take some effort to renew the layout.

I dunno whoever reads here but Im glad to be stalking ur blogs too if u are reading this.


never tried the commenting function b4. ehehee.. feel free lor.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

The University of Blogging

Presents to
peanutcase

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Gossip

Majoring in
Self Portraiture
Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com
ョ

Username:


Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

I dunno.. i was just kinda exhausted at the end of the day. N since i haven't been posting much on bloggers i must do short posts with higher frequency.

Let's see.. i've been goin out every other day the past 4 days, I'm officially bankrupt. Yah, n i kinda promised or suggested to go watch spiderman with another friend. Where do i go find the money now. arrr.

Was with Geeg, in, ck, kat, eva, eva's friend, ???(tak ingat, paiseh) at redbox.
umm.. ok larr... just abit cramp n all.
then.. watched ppl try smashing 10 pins off their base. ^^;; I don't dunno how to bowl rite. No kidding really.
Headed to Teapot cafe. Rite now i was really tired. Shrugs. nibble abit here n there.. Was really fun to see em after a long while. It really is different to chat offline. Ahahha.. i guess the weird stunts, gestures, noise and expressions really spurrs em moments together. totally different from typing n starring at an electron gun.

ppl still needa take some time off to just spend with each other. wait i don't like this phrase. Rephrase, ppl must take time off to meet on another to build quality friendship. (i don't like this wan either. ah who cares.)

prepares to face stupid results, which i know are gonna be BAD. cos i did bad. n i know it.

n my time table sucks big time. How am i gonna alter em. Shit.. i'm having different labs n tutorials with my pal. ARRRR. bloody system.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Title : the long forgotten blog of mine

Max, arrr.... i really feel very bad bout dropping out of ur KH doujin. But.. looks like i have not inspirasi for KH anymore... crap..

mei, har har har.. i cannot con't my myf camp dairy cos... its so long n to say everything would take.. too long. To cut it short... It was really breakaway from city from school from lotsa other stress.. n the camp did bring my focus back to the very maker Himself ^^;;

Hooli, sorrie dear.. I'll con't spilling all my saliva when u get back. sama2 ganbatte for our finals this sem yah?? ooooo ooo oo ooo.. Chem.. dreads.

Kaizeru, HI HI HI HI....... lorr...... u been busy eh??? I'm not doing so fine.. but still alive..somewhere.. as long as i have internet.


I've been so caught up with.. my beeps.. n then.. recent events have.. made me.. spend money on manga again. so if u guys.. wanna try something new.

DEATH note. by hikago's artist. um umm.. L is cute. L is so very cute.

Friday, May 14, 2004

fiddles with bloggers features.. everything looks wider.

Breakaway day 2. (will make it short n sweet, since i can't recall much)

Morning with Caryn. Ini sequel to Morning with David from last camp.
Yas.. morning exercise + music~!!!! Just get us all up.
But v had starters = group devotion. Something like small group. Where v sit n share.. i love this session. Great way to start the day. Our group have campers ages 14 to.. 2? kekekek.. n after last nite's mad hide and chase, v really bonded during supper.. relieved no wat was seriously hurt..but v had fun.

Since it was Sunday. Our speaker was still not available until later in the evening. So v had ter-registered into Bengkel Susan sdn. bhd. March v 2 by 2 into the workshop to find.. very interesting stalls around us. I dun wanna spoil the fun for those that haven't tried this activity. Cos its.. really suppose to be a SURPRISE. Objective of the game is to be the most successful person.. But choosing to equip ourselves with watever skills there are. I chose Greatness. So i had to get ppl to say i was Cute, answer general quizes, draw something for another to guess and run/walkf around the stadium twice.. (just keep in mind the stadium has 1 basketball court, 4 badminton courts, area for pingpong tables... ) I hope i didn't miscount. There was a time limit to the game. I got my very first Master/phd in Greatness.. n roamed around to help others.. umm.. there was Money, laughter, .. n others.. i weren't too aware..

at the end of the game.. the winners were suppose to have marshmallow choco moose from secret recipe..... UUUUwaaahh... welll only 7 ppl made it to that special table while the rest of us were stunned. U ask my wat happened.. Shhhhhh.... sore wa himitsu desu.

this very workshop really slapped me hard on the cheek.. n made me realise.. alot of things. Wat izzit to be successful? Come to MYF ^.-

Later in the evening.. i think v had something..i forgot...had forum.. missed it..cos i had to prepare for games

OH v had MYF super Sunday.. long tedious torturing.... team building game, gamemaster = Simone Ho (wanted person)
so there were all together.. 5 obstacles. Blind man's trail (wm), human tower (kho), crossing the string thingy (ml?), 7 legs, 7 knees, 2 hands watever it was.. i know.. it was the toughest (eho) then finally my station was to build the highest tower with ONLY straws. All teams did each challenge within 12 minutes. So.. it was really bout speed.. n height n most important team work. BOY. was everyone worn out.

n v had another.. game.. waterballoon fight.. war game? i got captured.. n my pants were all wet.. sigh sigh sigh.... after all these.. v had to clean up.. (committee) so.. was too tired to jump into the pool.. instead..i was in dire need for a hot shower n TIDO.. got my hot bath but no time to sleep.. it was oredi dinner time when i was done.. Noooo..
forget bout beeps.. they were oredi off my mind.

Yes.. finally a themetalk.. Aiyar..I need my pda back.. kho is still taking our pdas hostage. TT;;;;; my notes were inside. Learnt to be a compass not a clock. ok.. so v rested.. did i rest? i think i did.. i hoped.. cos.. there was one night which i was chatting with eho.. unti 3 am.. n wm smsed us with smelly news.. hmm.. guys dorm dillema.

nitez~~

end of day 2.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

MYF breakaway day wan after lunch

I think v had a team building session (TBG) after that... if I'm not mistaken.. n yes after a praise n worship.

TBG - challenge of the senses (i think this was the title).. so v get to taste all sorts of edible contortions by daikahjie.. I think I had ikan billis + toothpaste + coffee BLENDED. err.. suppose to act with sign language to our team for em to guess wat v tasted, feel, heard, smell. Gaah.. they went easy on us... ^^;; nothing.. mustard or wasabi to my disappointment.

Yoo.. then it was LEISURE TIME.. byk free masa to dip ourselves into the pool. I got cramps.. for not exercising (swimming) for years~ well managed to steam myself in suana b4 dinner. Some were playing badminton at the indoor stadium while the rest were just testing the waters... I gave up on doing assignments cos I'm not gonna forgive myself if i do not jump into the pool.. this time. It was refreshing..

later in the evening v had a few casualties. By playing the Fugitive Hunt. umm. was after dinner n after another round of PW. Each group will have to ostracise 1 group member to be the fugitives.. so they have to hide.. in wherever DARK gloomy, dusty, dirty, slimy, cold, wet places. Anyway possible for us to avoid being caught by the rest of the pack. 3 Killers were also on the loose (ie. dailoh- can't really run, but still a threat, adrian-well i think i seldom bumped into him to be panting for life, simone-gah this fello.. still was too slow for me)
ahahahaha.. some scenes i can recall.. that happened in the dark. well the whole compound was dark, had little glimmers of light to be able to not trip but.. well.. v had our gamemaster injured.. 5 minutes after the game. eheheh.. ppl chased him, he tripped, fell onto the rest of his persuers. That's wat i heard. n well he got caught n was carried back to the meeting room to tell his short tale.
umm.. while my group caught one of the fugitives.. i escorted her back to find yes the gamemaster injured. oh well from thence forth i was roaming around trying to my group members.. er... to no avail until the very last min.

at the end of the game.. the killers were doing a fantastic job of dispersing US (hunters) while... the fugitives were hiding peacefully (erm.. if u were in the dark room, with something else in it? or.. underneath a chalet? or somewhere where only weeds and insects thrive?) Everything was in the dark. I really was amazed how no wan found suresh. Ohooho.. n well.. my bro oso.. there should have been 40 HUNTERS searching for.. 6 fugitives n 3 killers. Like hunters were busy dodging n dashing n running away from killers instead of hunting for the fugitive.. ahahah..

well.. at the end of the game. v had supper.. n v shared our experiences.. n yah alot of casualties.. umm.... kekekekek.. but this is the last time v are goin to play anything so challenging in the dark.

end of day 01.
Ate at Armada hotel's coffee house's Mother's day Hi-Tea.
Was nice. just I've been quite a light eater these days.. Too full of a stomach makes me sleepy. But i can't be drowsy the whole day? Blames weather. When its hot, I tend to want to sleep more. sigh.

Umm.. i dunno y bloggers is down, but i was suppose to type my first day there.

MORNING - day wan 01 of MYF breakaway:
At 4.30am I finished my MARDI field trip report that was due the next day after I'm back from camp. Past camp experiences have taught me that I can never put up any more work after a full length exertion in camp. So it was either... I finish my assignments or.. no camp for me.

Tho i was in the camp comm, but my uni made me.. rather n/a during camp meetings, so I was like any other regular camper. (yay!) I really dunno wat was ahead of me.. hmm.. suspense.

Mom peeked out of her room n saw me still awake. Okay, i said I'm goin camp. Well, if u saw ur daughther stressing 3 whole days (NO SLEEP) just to finish her assignments wouldn't u be shaking ur head. But well me packed bag, had quick breakfast, reminded myself n my bro wat to bring for camp.. bla bla.. rush rush.. typical departure scenario. Off to kl.

Let me introduce to u my church - KL Wesley, I'm in this group = MYF (aka Mad Young Fools) :p nyah.. do not worry.. I'm not goin to put any preachy stuffs cos i understand most friends i know are intolerable to em.

7.08am - tiba church kat KL. With alot of fresh new looks looking blurr, wondering wat happened to the camp comm. .. .. .. Well.. The camp commander n family (dai kah jie n dai loh) were no where in sight. PANIC? no.. i hopped around, welcoming em new faces n shook a few awake.. but all of em were as excited me me. Tentu lar.. finally after beberapa stressful MONTHS.. v get a break.. RELIEF~!! my mind was quite dead, but i was just too happy. There were 49 campers this time round n boy I was quite senior. nyaahaha.

7.30am - yes, i left the rest of the campers n went off with the forward team. Our mission was to secure the campsite from any wild boars.. blabla.. JK lar.. Part of the comm were escorting the expensive equipments which was us. Hmm.. the journey was quite fun, cos v were blowing balloons in the van. Ahh.. well v were gonna need for deco. On the way v passed a gruesome car accident which made alot of our tummies turn to knots. I still have that picture in my mind.. But Let's not hold the traffic yah?

8.30am - I think, v were all pressed for time cos the bus was right behind us. 0.0ll each time KHo's (camp commando) phone rang our hearts skipped a beat, cos v had informers on the bus reporting their coordinates. The bus was SPEEDING. v quickly setup the place n were all set to let the campers come back to CIV, Rawang again.

9.00am - I think roughly... v had long speech by KHo and all were nicely sitted in their groups. - Linguini, Spiralli (me group), Speghetti, Fettucini, and Macaroni. (*Spelling may be incorrect) So the campers were all goin "pasta pasta" (sounds like Pastor). Each received that eeeww not so cun looking nametags n their very own coloured PDA (tu har.. camp booklet punya name). Had a short art n craft session where v were suppose to work on our PDA. Customising. heh heh.

to be cont'

photos are actually up online.. 278 + 71 =?? ermm.. but can't be accessed unless u got an email invite. I'll prolly steal a few. if i have the time.


Went to UP in teluk intan last saturday.
saw lotsa oil palms.. n coconuts n trees n well nothing else really.. tiresome journey.

I've been so detached from alot of things.. mainly internet... umm.. I'm still stucked with assignments.. i see... so many pilling again.. sigh..

but one thing I'm sure of is.. if u're stress.. Move out of it n take some fresh air n relax ur mind. Cos after the camp, I'm more refreshed. ^^;; n handling my assignments better than last time..

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Taggy replies,

poxy, erm.. well.. i guess its up to wether u wanna waste the time spent on those ppl.. ^^;; ahh.. computer work.. sigh...

Hooli, u know! Nyahahaha.

aoi, ohh.. its not complete. the jp vol7 came out last month .. well the local version was out oso.. ^^;; so if u're interested u really gotta look hard for em.. cos they are really selling like hot cakes. I get em from petaling street. Which ever store that sells manga.. I go to all of em. haven't been checking out their stocks lately. so.. can't be definite.

chiru, u just reminded me.. i hav finals.. rite after i came back from camp.. hugs

lune, then v start.. 2nd year student " V dun wan BEEPS" club umm.. just to huggle each other.. BOUNCES up n down..

I just came back from a 4 days 3 nites breakaway from watever world i was previously n currently in.
will be sharing my experiences.. once im rid of em.. assignments i have b4. me.. faints.

oh yes.. i have another field trip this sat to United Plantations.. hmm hm.. need.. camera..

just feeling sleepy n tired.

Friday, April 30, 2004

JUST LET ME BEEF BOUT MY LIFE!

I can't work on my stupid field trip report cause I misplaced all my notes for that.. n CRAP.. I have no time to spare...........


*beep represents something none likes but required to do.

every freaking week I have 7 bloody *beeps to pass up.

Like.. this particular week.. I'm suppose to go to camp this sat (not fri, sorrie) n come back on the tues to pass up 3 beeps on WEDNESDAY?! Gets myocardial infarction.
Then i have one chem report on thurs??!! And 2 cellmetabolism reports on FRIDAY and a stupid tutorial on the same day in the morning. I AM NOT A MACHINE.. I'm just flesh and bones n I do get tired of setting myself to NO-LIFE status for A month liaow. Wat's newer is I had to attend a meeting all the way in KL cos.. other ppl are just too busy to go.. while I'm stucked shit with all this beeps* Wasted my energy n precious time... when i can finish... 30% of all the reports i have.

I wanna FFK the camp... I just wan to stick my ass at home n be a good student and.. SAY *Beeps are my top priority. I do not pay for education in order to flunk it. SWEARS incessantly in my head.

my finals are in June.. yes.. i have a month left to not have time to study.
So... my decision is not about.. having fun in camp.. just i have this.. commitment towards the camp. YES i will miss out alot if i dont' go.. but HOW am I suppose to be able to finish all those *beeps during camp. I tried that n it seriously made me.. ill the last camp (n me being the camp commander).


the only thing that's sustaining me.. are my close-knited icq buddies. Suikoden madness, art online and maybe the nasi lemak that i take every other day.
My family are helpful, just not making do much chores these days, giving me more space and having me screw them every now n then when my mood is at apex.

I know none can help me settle my *beeps.. But a hug will do fine for now.
cries with accumulated STRESS.

I do not blame anyone for all this stress n misfortune that had befall me... cos... Some might just think I'm posting this on my dumb blog n to expect sympathy next?.. BULLSHIT. Anyone who thinks biotech is fun... u gotta sacrifice alot of things for education.. but izzit really worth the cause?

stress is making me.. lose all my nerves on rationalising. Do not expect me to be sane.. if this keeps up.

Monday, April 12, 2004

Was never aware of performing arts until my friend synical took to me watch last nites
A man for all seasons. Was held in bangsar shopping centre at The actor's studio. I don't need to sum wat the 3 hour (15 min intermission) play was about. ^^;; its was just lovely for this easter season. ^^;; u don't have to be religious to appreciate the play. It was the show's opening n v saw lotsa of local artists.. poets which synical pointed out n i was just ahh ooh.. yes.. see how shallow my knowledge bout em local artist industry. The tickets were at 50% for students so I paid RM28.50 for a fabulous 2nd row middle seat. 3rd n 4th would be the BEST but no discount for that.. hmm. Their voice projection was loud n clear.. n I'm impressed.. at how they manage their lines. Actors will be actors. Ohohohoho... Another thing.. i like bout the audience is the way they line up for toilets. ^^;; U don't see.. anyone cutting queues with this ppl. I think me n my friend were the youngest n not so well known in the midst of the ppl.. But.. the show was worthed it. Too bad they weren't in their periodic clothes.

after spending 30 bucks on the show.. i don't think i can afford that artbook that i wanted now. TT;;
next forum dispute. Errr.. i just dunno.. I just dunno. brain too fried to yak much. lor.

for the past 2 weeks I've v been sleeping for only 2-3 hours a day. Thanx to my assignments.. n uni. No time for ps2.. no time for art.. splendid.. simply splendid.
that's y i have no mood for lj n blog n even forum.. research research research. Of cos i do chat. abit. .i need it.. its like coffee fix to keep me awake. ARGH.


miaow, u are not making sense. U can't choose both izzit? ^^???? ermm..ur dream n ur heart...? ain't they the same?

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

Max,
Horizons is the calendar. Wings don't have doujin in manga sense. Just beautiful cg artworks ^^;;
wing's goods

lorrrr...... fma gba.. squeals. can't find kh's gba version anywhere... dang.

nothing to crap. just overly exhausted from all the assignments.. n I still have reports to do.
Deep sighs.

bgm : ffx2 piano collection

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

taking time off to just kepoh at wat ppl's been up to and was ranting bout sui4.. that coming on in summer... LIKE isn't summer.. NOW? harr.. june / july.. still so long?

okies okies. public transport takes up 120 minutes of my time. If i drive its only 40 minutes to get to uni n back. I refused to drive even I'm able is because i feel quite tired after driving.. stupid excuse. my P expires.. soon.. errr.. wat am i to do.. i keep fogetting to ask.

HORIZONS by wings syphonia has arrived. Its so worth my money. huggles calendar. What took you 4 months to come to me? OOoooOOoooOOooo... drools. From em art.. i see em artists have improved alot. woh.. esp. nyann ^^;; i shall bombard amei with lotsa comments. wohohohoho. was trying to link em.. pics with the title.. all bout skies? ohohohoho... hooli urs is in save keeping.. or u wan me to send it over to u? kekeke.

hovers ed hp screen saver around. THANK YOU dearie for taking the trouble to send it to moi. hearts* huggles hooli... no digicam.. no digicam.. that's wat I'm lacking..
i wanna show u ppl my new hair cut. (its just shorter... nothing new. My head is lighter ahh.. just if i were to highlight near hugo's, parents will disown me)

n snap photos of my stacks of assignments.. last year. The pile of stress.
wanted to snap my flooded bedroom (its one the 2nd floor) during a thunder storm.

but dad has been very distressed over some financial matters. So.. digicam.. another year. sigh. even a laptop for my bro has to wait. or should i just grab the laptop for myself instead. I hate waiting for ppl to finish viewing 18+ photos from their mailbox for me to print lec notes. I still need to use the uni's comp to print notes.. dang.. thumb drive.. yes that's the tool.

need advice, my cpu is currently lacking another cdrom drive.. (the old died) so izzit good to get a combo drive.. I'm just in no need of DVD n i would prefer an extra cdrom drive.. just in case my burner dies.

Friday, March 19, 2004

R all graphic designers or.. someone that can do proper designing work dead?

I wonder if ppl think too highly of me. I'm abit pissed and just tired of doing last minute designing work.
If i get paid I would complain oso. But if it means I don't sleep and getting my pocket money cut and parents unhappy. I rather NOT do. Hmm..
sometimes I think I'm just too nice n too much of a perfectionist.

I have no time for art, no time for sleep, no time of studies, assignments are killing me, i wanna work on a chiru's collab, i wanna play suikoden (i get scolded for taking time off just to play ps2), I wan to be free from responsibilities.

I would hav flown to overseas if i wanted to run away from lotsa of responsibilities. BUT i didn't.

I seldom write in this blog cos i dunno wat I'm to type here. I've been having a serious long period of diarrhea due to lack of sleep. (been a week now) My fault for staying up late? Argh.. If life was just assignments.. I think its much easier. But its not.

I don't tok bout church life cos none is interested in knowing BTW.
If i ranted on comics, only a few understands me.
If i toked on art. None pays much attention anyways.
When i start rambling bout suikoden, NO wan KNOWs.
So, let me grumble n complain and exert all the negativesness of having a blog.
love life? nothing bout it.. n not planning to have anything of that sort.

i wan to hangout with friends, our schedules do not permit us. My pocket is.. greatly wounded offlate. n with my allowances cut short.. I wished i stayed at home all the time.

OK, i admit I'm trying to find someone to blame other than myself. If it is God to blame.. I'm suppose to expect its for my own good in watever circumstances I'm in. So am I mad at God? Prolly. Am I mad at ppl?.... I can't say no.

I'm just so horrible in lying that my dad just sees tru me that i didn't sleep at all the night b4.
errr.........

SO, bottomline is.. I understand y ppl get so fed up with church stuffs so often. I hope I won't be. But I am now. But I'm all stressed up until my bowels are not functioning its best.

n no wan would notice this post at all I presume.

Monday, March 15, 2004

i know christmas is over.. but u just have to view ....

THIS!!!

point for amusement
cheers for inspiration
lol for santa's description!

Friday, March 12, 2004

I can't load oekaki boards. ermm.. all the internet browsers just Closes down on me when I atempt it. If A Virtual Java is needed, oso it won't just shut ALL my browsers.. its like some kinda trip bomb.

And its freezing cold in this complab.. was working on my bio lab report..seems like i have no mood..to type it.. prolly try chemistry.. hmmm... errrrrrgh......
its only 10 am and there's so many ppl in the lab. I wonder y monash just enjoys to have their server.. local. Can't i access em from home?? argh. oh wells.. I'm just plain bored here... sigh..

AND I WANT this!!! Jochen and jun kamijo LOTR doujin.
Its gonna be out soon.. n i need someone to help me BUY! argh. PLEASE. N I'm looking at hooli. Orang yang ada... KAD serbaguna ONLINE... TOLONG!!! Hey u better. sms me with watever aus hp no. u're using now.. yes.. how come i dunno.. bleh.

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

AH. My uni computers do not allow us to open java applets. SO.. So.
I CAN'T OEKAKI.. was all up for a mouseart n all the browsers just closes in front of yer.
iiiiiiiiiiiik.
i wan to draw.. I wan to draw. on 3.. oekaki BOARDS... ahhhhhhhhhh.....

so.. ppl are asking me to watch Juon. umm?

chiru, ur iGenetics is RM460. I just popped both my my eyes.. after hearing the price. get it from Aus ler.. same price.. rite?