nothing weird.
why sometimes i feel like updating in certain blog, journal, multiply, facebook.
What prompted me to make these thoughts alil more accessible is because

1. I had put "the right path" in my skype's profile bar recently
2. A colleague actually took notice and it drew her interest to ask me why or what is the right path yesterday.
3. Even being a christian for so many years, I have no confidence in myself in "making" my own paths right, ONLY God knows which path is designed for me to thread on. Proverbs 3:5-6
4. Both of us agreed that the right path may not actually be an easy path. (its always the difficult one, and requires sacrifices)
5. I told her and reminding myself that if we have anything to sacrifice, it probably be our own self, or self will.
6. From an atheist POV, not everyone is able to let go of their own self, cause to some of themselves it means the whole world to them.
7. From a believer of Christ POV, not everyone is able to deny self and take up our cross and follow Christ. This humble pie is not so appetising to many. Sometimes even to me. My own desires and wants do take the priority seat when it comes to deciding which path to take. Cos, I am important, I should take priority of myself.
8. Today's devotion was on WHY we must stay in our lanes. About King Uzziah who sought after God and was blessed tremendously until he gave up the humble pie and became proud of himself from all the success. This led to his downfall. (2 Chronicles 26:16)
9. Was just flipping to today's 365 Spiritual refreshers calendar date. "Humility is a right judgement of ourselves." This is how we are suppose to see ourselves before God and before others.
10. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3. You have to read the verses in 3:5-6 to get a fuller picture on finding and walking on the right path.

Strange Dream

I woke up not from my alarm clock but from a strange dream about me being super childish and fighting with my friend Sookie (dun ask me how u got into my dream, so happened u were the other big kid) over a those artificial bun material thingies.
it was bigger than a tennis ball, it was i think suppose to be a japanese honey melon. so it had some kinda netting outside. I was envious and so i snatched it from Sookie and punctured it and i told Sookie actually wanted her to share it with me. So we started playing throw the thing but we were very reluctant. So we argued and fought and i dun remember what were the words we used but. I know we werent very Christian to each other.

I woke up having a fright over the whole dream. And realised i had been angry for the past few days over every single lil thing that doesnt go my way. I was acting and thinking selfishly and most ungracious towards the errors or trouble brought by others. and suddenly im just not able to smile when greeted this morning.

I listed out all the things that made me unhappy and they were the felt need symptoms. I ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to me the real need and pray against it. I hope I can fast over my anger today. i actually enjoy being angry. and its wrong kinda satisfaction. Im getting more miserable by doing so.
and remembering Malaysia especially today~!!

09-09-09

now you wont get this lovely strings of 9s until the next millennium. For chinese, it means longevity. As long as you can have long lasting marriage, its good. Or live long, extra good. Good things to last forever is what everyone wish for.

if you are wondering where are the comics. i need time to get it started up again, at the mean time, blogging my thoughts is also an update. I havent been drawing for past few months. Which is quite a concern to myself, apparently art is taking a backseat for past quarter and next quarter of the year. i was twittering for about a month. i guess 140 words limit is simply not enuff for me to express my thoughts.

Maybe i figured out what's keeping me from getting good night's rest. Figuring it out doesnt quite help me go back to sleep. One experiment im going to do is stop taking the vit c that my company is dispensing to employees daily. See if it helps. I have my regular dose of centrum, kinda ran out of it a month ago. heh. Yes, organic minerals are not suppose to do anything to us, but that's the only new thing i have been ingesting for past 2 weeks? No harm trying not to take.

Yes, there are issues that are troubling me. I am asking God to help me clense my thoughts as much as I want to be able to serve Him wholeheartedly. With a mind that is constantly thinking about worldly things & my own wants. Ironically, I will be having a session with youth group on Mindset. And boy am I trying my best to let God speak to me with all the noise trying to get priority.

All you HOUSE fans. The fanclub membership have just added one more fan. Just 4 ep of the first season is enough to make me work on notes after every ep is done. I cant believe im delighted to see how a CT scan sounds or how emergency tracheostoma is performed. For my field of work, im not a M.D. but i have to constantly learn up. of cos this is not the appropriate way to learn, who is to define education and how knowledge can be gained?

oh, on the longevity part. only when we end our term on earth, thats when we live perpetually with Jesus in Heaven praising God. Sounds boring? Maybe, but that's what Adam & Eve and all creation was made for.

One creation I must ask God when i meet Him. Is why He made COCKROACHES?



random doodle just to practice whether i still know how to draw my comic character. SIGH*

Usually ppl come back exhausted from CAMPS. 2008 MYF CAMP was sure to be remembered. However MYF CAMP take 2 this year was extra uplifting. And having Mr Selvaraj to inspire us with words of wisdom from God. I do feel most charged up and convinced I dun need to be merely surviving when in Christ, I'm a victor.
OKIES Intro aside, my evaluation of this camp as a camp goer for well MANY MANY years. Is truly a Retreat Made by God. Campers were few, but more than previous and was encouraged to see yet to be myfers or ex-myfers joining. Actually, it was a blessing to be amidst so many bro & sis in Christ coming together to hear God despite our busy schedule. I was blessed richly coming back from this retreat.

Got closer to many ppl i would never had chance to have any encounter with them if they didnt sign up. Enjoyed a relaxing weekend away from work, from family (technically, in camp, me n my bros werent talking to each other much), from church, from stress, technology was still there, WiFi and movies and Laptops. Seeing the sunset horizon was just so soothing, God made all things so beautiful, even the sun and sky and sea and cloud are ever praising Him. Delights the heart.

Apart from gaining head knowledge from the theme talks. The discussions made me look back at my christian growth and how God has led me to where I am today. Everything that had happened, was for my good, and thus it increases my faith in Him who is always in control. Why should I even be worried about where i will live, what job i might change to or even whether i would have a family of my own. All in good hands.

Never, in my life have i ever finish building not just a castle with alot of extra help, and with developers that seized the opportunity to expand the territory with no notion of what the castle will look like exactly, and even planting trees and landscaping the gardens with rocks and pond. And even decided to make a canal for water to flow into the developing land. When I first started putting sand into the bucket, I had no idea of the outcome. Until I start putting my hands at work and then slowly an idea pops up, and all it takes is more perseverance to get the shape of the building right. But i need to work on the foundation first, if not the castle will not stand. help came along. I was thinking of working on it alone, but ppl took interest and poured in their time and energy to help shape the foundation. When i realise they were serious in helping, I shared my vision with them. They caught it, and so we continued putting the sand castle together. Then others saw abit of the shape of the castle coming along, they too took interest and started expanding the territory. When it was all finally done, we see a very well put together MYF paradise at PD. I was once again reminded that we should always put christ as the head. Not just any ordinary flag of our own names, but a cross that points to salvation & love.

Mindset, Maturity, Ministry, Missions.

Everyone that were at the Survivor Or Victor MYF CAMP. I see God living in everyone of u guys. Thankyou for simply being there.

Apologies for hardly updating my webcomic. Let's just say, God's timing is always on time. as for the lack of updates, its me who has been lazy while waiting for the next step to take.

have embarked on a freelance job to draw bible characters which unofficially started a week before i went on a vacation in Tokyo, Japan. Deadline was actually somewhere in the middle of my trip. Its been a month now since then, everything is restarted, and i need to get my commission done asap. Second chance to get things done properly. PTL for the opportunity.

Taking a 10 days break in a foreign land on my own along with two very enthusiatic comrades had ignited the adventure in us. You betcha we want to travel another round and somemore and somemore. Until we finally are too old for it i guess? I had a cheeky conclusion that probably we will stop our 'adventure' when either one of us have settled down, with family + kids. We will never know. Watching UP animation, kind of had alot of elements that I personally am looking fwd to. God willed if im ever suitable for marriage life.

I've always been very attached to my family, once a while I will be away with friends for camps and retreats. But that's not being fully independent and surviving on my own now isnt it? I had always wondered, what if I did go abroad for studies, where would i be now? Will my path be directed back to the church i grew up in or engage in any ministry I am very excited about? Looking back at how I've taken huge and smaller steps of growing in Christ at where i was at those points in time. Shaped the me today and moving forward is without that regret i had about staying back in msia.

starting an expensive trip to a land i always dreamed of visiting, ilumines me from the many questions i posted when i study their culture. reading about ppl and living amongst them is really two different input altogether.

similar experience (5 years ago) was going to spore to try bust the myth that kiasuim originates from there and how the govern's method of keeping the country clean by banniing chewing gum and fining litter bugs. Dont get me wrong, just lil muses I hear from others. I love hanging out with my sporean friends. I hope i can drop by again some time soon. always been an annual drop by.

Took me 2 weeks to recuperate from my tokyo trip. it was a huge endurance test. And being welcomed by my down with flu family. Adjusting back to office work pace was quite a task, when the full 10 days was about walking and out walking for full daylight. I do hope i can get back to my routine exercise, since the haze has gone away. starting tomolo ^^;; yay. Will be updating another post of my weekend retreat in PD.

ps. TOKYO trip not from my POV, being most convenient of all is posting my friend's WORDPRESS SUMMARY OF OUR TRIP. My journal is all in photos - FACEBOOK ALBUM. Im still midway updating my photos, only managed until day 5. still need to compile the following 5 days. so much work.

Alone - day 07


finally an update after WEEKS. this concludes the short introduction. currently plotting the next batch of 7. i hope i wont get too lazy on it.

2 headed serpent ^^. I do enjoy drawing reptiles. dragons are actually one of them i like to work on. however there's alot of reasons for picking this design for Dilly&Dally. You will get to see them off and on or hear their voices in the coming stories. til then stay tuned.

How do you know whether you are right or wrong?

text to be editted.

Alone - Day 06



Are things getting simpler and simpler. well i have to admit, the lecture hall i survived through werent the most elaborate. Though I would have wanna experience halls with individual seating and so forth. Ed short for Edward. Ed will be playing some major roles as Hans tries to comprehend the world around him. for now, he's the golden retriever sorta role to Hans. Can anyone do without company? A friend? No one likes to be alone. (dang, im hitting my comic title). What's this feeling of being lonely even when there are other ppl in a same room?

to be editted.

Hopefully the last intro wont take forever.

Editted 21 March 2003

Alone Day 05 - Thunder, the cat



I take one week to update and this is what i come up with? a messed up inked cat with bad composition. TT_TT;;

i chose the most difficult fur colour for this comic. BLACK. usually it should be a lump of black fur with just the eyes sparkling and the rest are just jet black. this is the easiest way to cheat on drawing the cat when they are not the focus. (day 01-03). I didn't want the cat to look less animated. She also has a personality. Although its harder to see when everything is black. so today's panel is especially for her GUILTY look. took me ages to get it rite.. or i didnt? i spent a few days studying cats, their eyes, their pose, their anatomy.. and look at this? i minimised all other details. but next week's update is going to be on Han's strange friend.
then another last day of the week post. we will be off with lesson 1~!

typo errors are evident. but i can't really edit my stuffs. pending and i need help.

Editted 21 March 2009

Alone Day 04 - My Alien Sister



Sometimes we feel like we are closer to our friends than our own siblings. Just have no good reason to know about each other. So what if we have blood relation, the less we get into each others' nerves the better we can cohabit in the same space.
Here's Hans' younger sister, we will get to know more about her later. For now, when siblings don't fight, what else are they capable of doing together?

my updates are getting very random. I try to update 2 per week. Will try my best.

Editted 21 March 2009

Alone - Day 03 , Here comes Papa


I ran out of space trying to describe Han's dad. He is definitely a question mark. Whether or not his dad is into stock or WWF, we will see if Hans can bust those myths ^^;;. it was fun drawing the mini. i had to get a few reference. btw, they have another car, just this antique gets more focus for now.

Editted on 21 March 2009

Alone Day 02


u will get to meet the rest of the family members in the coming days.
For now meet MOM. Very crucial character in everyone's life. You cannot be born without a mother. So how's following rule no 5 from 10 commandments coming along? Most mothers only want the best for their children. Just that, we come from different generation, and we might feel somehow that mom's advice does not equal our peers'.

will have amendments once i got it proof read ^^. but im putting it up first!
hans mom is a fun character to draw.

edited**

Hi friends,

This blog is going to be turned into my web comic dumpster.
I will be updating as frequent as I can, the moment I find time to doodle and put in inspirational thoughts to strokes. Here's a humble beginning of how I'm going to update on bible stories as well as relating them back to our current world today. Most are based on my own personal experience. So there may be bias thoughts or something random that only I can relate to. Please read with extra caution. Ultimately, u have to compare back to the God's word. I'm open for comments & critiques but I will not entertain theological debates.

Alone - Day 01


This is probably non-biblical as every story needs to start with a introduction. I will try to get to the main part after a week (7 days) of intro is done. So bear with me.

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After :: Book :: Thoughts
Facing your Giants by Max Lucado

A great epic of a nobody, who was somebody in the eyes of God, who's story begins in 1 Samuel 16 and till the final moments in the beginning of 1 Kings. Suddenly the recipe in making a warrior out of a "boy" that struck down a 9 foot tall giant, Goliath, had all the main ingredients listed in this book. If we were to read David's journey with our spiritual eyes, one would have only thought what God did was just merely empowered David's muscles and the stone to give the final blow. But actually, God was in every bit of David's life as long as God remained his king. The chapters slowly forwards to our time, here and now. To draw insights and learn from David's experiences and faith. We get overwhelmed so easily by our everyday struggles, they become the incredible giants we fail to overcome. Tried looking for answers and solutions and remedies to change in social circles? death of loved one? illnesses? heartaches? fears? Ever wonder why God had you placed in such situations? Getting paranoid. Getting frustrated and then feeling alone and depressed about life. David looked not for his inner strength, but he set his eyes on the one who was greater and mightier than Goliath. Thinking you are not really quite cut out for big challenges? Gave up too early for the fight and chose to run away? At the verge of renouncing your faith? Of having second thoughts about God that controls the universe? You will want to read this book.

So what 's this about Christ's (Christian's) Love that's so different from others?

Some find it extremely easy to define love, you can feel it in the air. (that's when some slow swing music tickles one's ear)
Some, like me, find it rather abstract, it has alot of 'feeling', but i rather use the word 'experiencing' to describe love.

Most interesting note to park here is that, I don't really know how to love. It was Christ who first loved me, enabled me to actually love myself and somebody else. Likeable or not so likeable people alike.

There's this term that church speakers tend to use alot. First Love. After many years, I nearly forgot that experience when God first touched my heart. I was released, relieved, refreshed, reconciled and rejoiced. Gosh, I do missed my first encounter so much. However the renewing part comes so much slower and later. How could I've identify?

It was the ability to love. With no strings attached, no gain at sight, no reward expectant.

Okies, so its easier to love material things than people. I do have a huge collection of my lovelies and most of my online friends know too well. People are just downright as imperfect as me.

but
With Love, there's also forgiveness. The release of hatred, bitterness, sorrow, and disappointments to God. Before that there's tendency to wrestle abit with Him. Cause when we allow these negative feelings to occupy our minds, we want to try to settle our emotions and feelings on our own. Maybe a sweet revenge before we try to forgive.

Old saying, many still believe it works that 'Time will heal all wounds'. I'm not absolutely sure this saying is of much remedy for wounded hearts. Our memory storage is so good in remember hurts, that even with time, we can still remember what the other person did to us 10 years back. But how we would react towards that person or a similar situation would show whether time has heal that wound in us. (putting amnesia and dementia aside)

For men, if you still angry with the other person, people will say you are being very unsporting, why not let bygones be bygones. For women, two can exchange smiles and still hide the vibe for each other undercurrent. Either way, we will have to bear with it, even if deep down we don't like it. we're just forced to for the better. Yeah for the better. Are there still wounds? Apparently neither of the party truly would wanna live in the same house with the other that have wronged them before. Yeah, let's call lawyers and divorce. Avoiding conflict is good to avoid violence and ticking off anger or simply hate the other lesser. These are probably extreme examples that are happening. The only way we humans can do, is better we don't see each other, let time flush away the angry and let's bury the hurt somewhere deep down.

Drama indeed. So, I know I can't love another person that wronged me. I can't love a criminal that killed innocents. I know I don't approve of their actions, either do God. I will want to love my enemies because Christ first loved me. I was His enemy before I accepted Him. He still loved me. That's what's Love all about.

reflection and note from my last small group session. there's always something to learn or remember back.

Is it because there's nothing exciting to talk about MYF that's why my blog was just blank up til prolly now? There's alot of things to ponder when people are forced to change and adapt a new rule or setting or routine. At first it is always harder to get into the new time slot. We naturally get excited. Once we've figured out how troublesome it is to come more than once to KL in a week, we get alil sulky over the inconvenience. Actually that's really not the problem. Or is it? So not everyone benefits from the change of system.

Would the committee be looking deeply into the matter, that not all the sheeps are happy.

my vote is yes, they ought to find out and find solutions to the matter. It's really irritating when we open one question and just because there's no absolute right answer to it, its left hanging in mid air and prefixed our minds that the best answer is 'only God knows'. Well true, only God would know what would be the best answer, but we on earth will not necessarily gather His wisdom hands at work. Im not being sarcastic. I know my life is in His hand and He's a better navigator than I am a billion times more & more. But would it really take some big catastrophy to get our attention just for God to be more audible or perhaps my ears and eyes to be removed of the wax and scale to finally see that YES, GOD IS DOING SOMETHING while I wasn't paying attention.

I think what's stinging in my heart is that Lord though we didn't pray for numbers. But I do hope that the remaining no. were consistent.

there's much more in my thoughts. so many questions.

Chap Goh Meh - 15th day of Chinese New Year.
No more angpaos til the next year. BTW, those of you who are rather shocked how serious this blog of mine is turning out. Redirect to my livejournal. Its not too hard to find if u know my username. *hint is my cobwebbing website.

I thought this year's income would had dropped by 50% but it seems like I collected almost the same amount as last year. Im slowly spending them off. Its bad when I carry my money all around wherever I go.

I would wanna start journalling my christian perspective of the dual lives Im living in. In the world but not of the world. To constantly remind myself, holiness is the step everyone must take, before expecting changes to whack hard.

Reunions - Great custom, tradition, that signifies the importance of relationship. Esp. Family relationships. Being one person that just never moved from my original spot for 20 years. I see ppl moving forward and leaving. I see ppl coming back to their roots and making effort to fit in once again. Whereas, I stay rather neutral, and not changing too much. But I see changes. Ppl not being treated like kids anymore, cousins establishing their own careers. Aunties wondering whenever they gonna have my generation to start seeding and bear fruits after hanging so long on the parent tree. Its wonderful to have a family to belong to. That's CNY for me.

Moving On - Argh, I never liked farewells. I can count and there's at least 5 ppl Im gonna miss or already missing quite a bit. And some which have dropped hints of leaving not soon, which makes it quite an aggravating waiting period. I wonder too if I will ever leave the nest. Im asking for jobs that can keep me in kl. The grass is greener somewhere beyond my nest. If Im ever gonna leave, Im sure I won't give myself time to even think, cos thinking twice will make me chicken out of it. Yeah, it might an abrupt departure, if that happens.

Questions that ran inside my head, n they have cleared,
"why leave our country?"
"why all the bother getting PR?"
"No where is actually better, compared to home"

I asked, n asked and asked. Yes, I got my answers for them.
Musn't refuse to let go of birds that have learnt how to fly and find another nest of their own.

Promoting God - Its not illegal, neither it is easy. We often like to be comfortable. If we aren't, means we don't find peace in where we are placed in. So is God the clutch that only the 'weak' hold on to? I actually agree with it after many years of finding it a contempt.
Using religion as an excuse to make oneself feel better about their weaknesses? The horror to hear such statements coming from close friends. Used to, but now I understand, how much they don't understand. The more I must not be shutting out opinions that reflects another's perspective. "God also need ppl to do sales and the pastor is promoting God in church every sunday, won't you agree?" I believe this came from a non-christian. But the statement is not entirely agreeable. How the world perceives sales & marketing is very different from how God does His branding. Spiritual food (daily bread, His word) is what God wants His ppl to be constantly feeding on. Somehow, we are just refusing to take in such food daily because of our mixed up priorities? our own personal ambitions and dreams? our own fantasies. It's really all about making ourselves happy yah? temporary happiness. God sends us loads of reminders. Ever stop being busy and observe? They don't come in dramatic forms, but direct messages from the pulpit. Yah, so what yer doing going to church every sunday mate?

Long forgotten blog.

The Lord has been faithful. He hasn't given up on my family or me. I have been very rebelious. Still am actually. More confession? Lately it had been hard to utter a prayer or sit and consult God on matters which are happening around me. A silent retreat i was forced to go along. Gave me time off to retune my sengat walk.

I forgot i had a friend who was on a mission trip. But I know the Lord was with her.
I was reluctant to continue my prayer list of items that have been there for months. But
I'm truly amazed at how things work.

My dad is slowly but still a big man with lil faith. I know he can do great things if he puts away all his fear of money. Its like chasing the wing says Solomon. Putting all life's effort into storing wealth, and never felt true joy of being blessed with riches, is a very sad thing in life. In my dad's shoe, i realise the importance of being contented with what i have and not dream of what others have that i dont.

My grandma, once i hated her, ignored her, didn't want to have anything to do with her. The Lord hit me hard on the head, and i was given a chance to see how miserable i was when i couldn't let go of all these bitterness. Forgive me, I've been judgemental and Lord work your ways in her and also my relatives around me. Grandma wants to get baptised. She doesn't know the doctrine, thought of giving her some more time to know wat she's getting into. Don't want her to feel tricked into Christianity. LIES. Excuses of the enemy. Give me the burden once more to pray. She has changed, more cheerful, talkative, hopefully she can cut down on gossiping, and less suspicious of people around her. And she can walk very well now, under alot of care. But v can't let her go back to her own house and stay alone. Her health is our concern.

My mom, thankyou for standing firm and being the pillar of this family of ours. I know you are working very hard to hold this family together. With dad and grandma and in-laws, you never neglected me and my siblings, as well as church commitment. Deep down in my heart i feel very ashamed that i've forgotten to uphold you in my prayers. Lord forgive me. In her shoes, i see that its very tiresome to be alive, to deal with people's problems and not have a life of my own. To be washed, used, misunderstood, and slaved for others. This self-sacrificial virtue, I lack alot.

I've grown very attached to my small group. I really miss sg session. I don't like the it when i have to miss 2 session because i have to go for 2 field trips. Is there another way i can make up to it? I really wanna go through the next sg session with them. Its on chrisian service. To be a leader is to be a servant. Lord, thank you for showing us a direction and also providing us avenues to work towards this goal u have set. Pls continue to do so.

I keep reminding myself bout the 7 deadly sins that at some degree I do possess.
Often my prideful self would expect to be praised for my achievement, my ego would want ppl to acknowledge that i just got older by a year. Discouragement and criticisms are like forms of curses that I really wanna just throw em back or totally shun away from.

I can still remember getting my art doodled over like its just something of no importance. I was very angry at first. Though all happened in the digital realm, still i can't forgive the act of being disrespectful towards my art. I got bitter after telling off the person who i thought "wronged me". Confidently i thought i could accept any form of critique thrown to me for my art. In the end, i succumbed to my pride. I asked for opinions, reasoned with ppl so to justify my anger was a necessary one. Misunderstanding they say. It wasnt just a mere misunderstanding, the problem was me. I guess i did give a warning that "i do not need further comments regarding this particular area". Doesn't really justify the fact that i cannot come to proper standing when i get jabbed in my weaker points. Avoiding hurt, doesn't make a person grow. Identifying and overcoming the hurt by chaging my attitude. Things will definitely look different. Humbling self, i musn't complain its hard. But to be meek, its a challenge.

What if ppl are out there to hurt you? Must i tolerate all this unwanted negatives? I must confess, if im in such a situation, i would try my very best to not be affected and seriously pray. Pray? Nonsense!! Forgive the person? IMPOSSIBLE!!! Yah, forgiveness has to come first. But reconciliation needs both parties. Hate what sinful act the person had done but not the person.

I still say its impossible. Then my friend, you're still not ready. When you're ready, you will experience greater fullness and joy in our mission on earth.

IQ test? dunno how reliable.. alot of logic questions i wasn't too fond of answering:


Congratulations, Pea!Your IQ score is 129

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

hmm they wan me to pay hmm.. to see my full report.. err..

u can find em tests here...
http://web.tickle.com/tests/

Day 2 (because i got pestered) of BURN 2005 : DAY 2 Photos

Actually the bed is way much better than civ's. But i have phobia of double deckers that are probably more than 10 years old. I don't like sleeping on the bottom bunk. kinda scary to see the ceiling so low. Fatigue took the best of me and got my rest.

Apa ni exercise tak maksud akal. No lar.. had fun trying to fake running around the torny grass.
I always enjoyed taking ppl's backs, cos they look most natural without noticing a camera.

2nd theme talk - yes be expecting more action and faith building sessions.
Was all prepared, just bring in on! My group clique very well when it comes to team building activities, "where is your brother"? And it turned out to be "Am i even keeping?" First station was blind mice and it wasn't hard, but frustrating to make ppl do something when they can't see. i was blind folded the year b4 n i had to pop water balloon by sitting on em. To not be able to see, is very scary. But to have that assurance of a voice guiding, things are less dark than they seem.

Next station was polar bear ice - and my feet nearly got froze bite... its was PAINFUL~!!! even for 30 seconds. Ahh relationships are even more STINGING when they don't go well. Figures, the emotional pain is hardest to heal. And without anyone beside to keep us company, i think the pain will linger even longer and eventually more hurtful than before. Then our spiritual being just freezes like ice. Doesn't mean the pain isn't there if v claim that v don't feel it. That thorn will always remain there, but most of the time v dare not (or can never) pull it out alone.

3rd station - wat's this tasting each other's saliva again?
oh dear.. another disgusting episode of "who gets the last dose". My group's sacrificial lamb, its obvious from the many snap shots. ahh.... i heard even worst.. glad it was over. I HOPE. In life v have to bear with one another, no matter the good n bad. Working with ppl would be the hardest job requirement in any task. You would think church ppl are all sweet lil old ladies, but.. they come in all shape n sizes, just like wat's in the world is in the church as well.

4th station - errr... y do v have to carry the queen again.. its war. Give ppl weapons n they will seek and destroy. The race v're gonna run (if u haven't taken up God's challenge) or running,is not a breezey stroll on a grassland filled with spring flowers. Its a path that has snares, traps, rolling boulders (if u can fancy them), lies, sadness, pains, hardship. Then as v overcome each hurdle that comes our way, God equips us, He teaches and builds us up for harder battles ahead. I remember clearly the bible exposition on James. Trials come and they are there to train our patience, our endurance, n strenghten our faith in God. Temptations are things that v ask for ourselves, unless v tear away these desires that are not of God, v are never free.

I'll just touch on theme talks cos i remember them more clearly than other stuffs.
The 2 workshops were inspiringly fun and exhausting. First v had to crack our brains, then our eggs, then strain our selfs for water balloon fight. Who gave out that idea that MYFers are most durable and can witstand any conditions?!! The non-stop action pack saturday was not even near the end. There comes another round of games. And i got most irritated by David! 3 months of no seeing his face, he haunts me when im quacking like a duck. Simon is less cruel than last year. I should be thankful.